WHO THE F@%K IS HEX: The Face behind Hellflower Media

Model/Adult Performer/Sideshow Performer/Media Mentor/"Jackass" Rated: PG-X Instagram: Hexovthewest

Photo taken by SundaeDrip 2023

I constantly create, it's the only way I compute. I was born into the performer lifestyle, my father was a musician before I was born, then became full time in music: musician/producer/Bouzoukia builder plus his day job. I had a unique upbringing having a recording studio in my childhood home, having people from across the seas somehow ending up in our home, together, creating the most awing undocumented jam sessions I’ve ever seen and eating home-cooked meals from their native countries. I tried to stay busy while he was away on gigs. I took on everything I could, sports, gymnastics, writing, dancing, drawing, creating my own “potions”( it was perfumes made from the neighbors gardens.) In older years enjoying modeling, crafting outfits and posting them online. I’ve always been obsessed with the taboo, I fell in love with all things body modification at an early age and started as soon as I turned 18 and I've always been obsessed with the occult and side show performances. After graduating H/S I went to cosmetology school, I learned contortion and belly dancing and I've been throwing knives since 2016. I also took passion in training Krav Maga, which is a mixed martial art developed by Imi Lichtenfeld, training with black belts and eventually training the youth until an unfortunate injury during a street fighting seminar. This has always been me. Aside from growing up in the Greek community that has always been majorly influential on me, when I got interested in the pinup/gothic retro style as a teenager and wanted to start modeling my biggest inspiration was a local model Nicolette Joyce, who unfortunately made an early departure before I could thank her for inspiring me, the guidance and genuine friendship. She was so beautiful and so talented, still to this day I hold a special place for her. In recent years, my biggest inspiration has been @Saint Arson. I've watched her career develop since the beginning and I’m blown away by her accomplishments and her work. She has put so much effort into where she is now. I admire her because she always motivates me to keep going in my direction.

Another huge impact on me is Know Thyself Podcast, they are local & focus on Esoteric knowledge and self-unfoldment. They have been such a light in my life, I adore what they're about and their podcast helped me through my darkest times! I’ve had a lot of heartache in my life, a lot of loss in many degrees.  The toughest though was being with a partner that was incarcerated for years, that put a lot of strain on my careers & personal life that has impacted me for over half a decade. It is partly why I started doing adult content. I put a lot on hold during those years. Despite the so-called success (or failure) people have seen, it's been a bit of both in honesty. It felt like I was living a double life and had a very negative impact on my mental and emotional health. In 2018 (Deleting my 15K account) I took a year hiatus away from the internet for my personal wellness. In that time, I had full time employment and owned two small businesses that I eventually closed, again in a depressive state. In 2019 Hex Ov The West was launched and I came back to the adult industry starting from nothing. For the past two years I've dedicated a lot of effort to combat that depression, thankfully branching back out into these amazing communities & finally finding a therapist that was a good fit for me in 2022 that I still continue to see. I've been able to focus on healing and healthy spaces. I’ve had so many great lessons business-wise, but the biggest thing I’ve learned is that you have to put yourself first or you’ll lose yourself. You can’t please all and the world can be bothersome– But don’t become bothered, allow it to pass. Don’t wait for an invite or permission to live your life, initiate things yourself, speak the life you want into existence and make the effort, it's never "too late". Do what brings you joy. Go at your own pace, for you, no one else.

Photo taken by Jacob Zucker 2019

I've had a lot of great moments in my career but my fondest was the controlled burn photoshoot in Prescott with Jacob Zucker in 2019. (Don't do that without permission and proper supervision, it's super dangerous) I loved that photo alterations weren't necessary, the entire area was smolder and I was dancing on ashes. It started out with such delicate & soft poses that were beautiful then by nightfall I was covered in ash and dirt with wild hair, contorting around the fire and in bushes and just turned into such a creature. I’ve never had such a drastic shift in a photoshoot before that. Since 2022 I have begun co-creating again, previous years everything was created on my own. I've covered a lot of ground and worked with so many incredible creators, but my biggest accomplishments were earlier this year. I was invited to work with MessyHot.com while reaching out for slime after my own failed attempts at creating my own. Clix has been a hero of mine and the scene went so well that he asked me to be an official MessyHot.com model on the spot. I was ecstatic to accept. Other than that, this year has been another huge one for me with brand ambassadorships: Kvlt und Khaos Productions(a metal record label in Austria.) As well as SexMares Toys(US) and Bad Dahlia(US) this year. I also won 3rd place in my first international modeling contest and achieved my first publishing in Tattoo Industry Magazine.

My advice to the seeker is research your industry thoroughly. Form your own communities, don't shrink yourself down to fit in. Remember that as much as you are looking for support to treat people as humans, not numbers.  Always tell someone where you’ll be at even if you don't go alone. Have that contract ready. Get tested regularly if you’re doing spicy scenes, untested is still a status and protection is not 100% preventative. Stand firm on your boundaries. Take classes, network, and always continue seeking education & insight. Take a self-defense class, it builds character. And lastly/most importantly, have hobbies outside of your career, enjoy your life; not everything is about work and time is finite.

A stigma I loathe is that “all SWers are full service” or into hook up culture. In some places it is legal but it is not in Arizona. Just because someone cams or creates adult content does not mean they provide full services. If you're not aware of what that means, it's conducting sexual acts for payment. Just because a photographer or model agrees to do TFP (time for print/collab) does not constitute having expectations for sexual relationships or a right to conduct yourself inappropriately regardless of what the content is and violating someone's consent. If I could, I’d change the judgments and entitlement that comes with the work. Playing a role in a video or on camera in general or posing explicitly does not equate to someone wanting to hook up with you nor an obligation to, the verbal and/or physical abuse that people undergo because of these situations is something I truly wish I could change. This goes for accusing a creator-partner for cheating because of the nature of their work, expecting them to act out what they do in content in their personal relationships, slandering others for not participating in an act after rejection. The list goes on. A lot of communities do not have regulations or reprocautions for this behavior and it's truly sad to me that so many people in the adult industry get not just discriminated against, but abused. I choose to only perform online because the sites themselves have the option to report and separate yourself from it via blocking, and require membership verification. I am a huge advocate for safe SW despite the censorship we face online.

2024 has a lot going for it already, I will be submitting my first sets on SuicideGirls as a hopeful, doing new scenes with MessyHot.com and promoting all of my other affiliations. Continuing the Hellflower Media mission and launching my first public websites to provide more Hex Hellflower platforms outside of my exclusive Hellflower VIP page. I will also be dedicating more time to self-tying (Shibari) in the new year and learning new performance arts. There's a lot of creativity brewing and I'm just excited for 2024 overall.

In memory of Nicollet Joyce. (1992-2011) Her model mayhem account still remains to this day. She accomplished so much in her carrer. Those who love her, miss her dearly. PSA: DO NOT DRIVE UNDER THE INFLUENCE. She made an appearance at a holiday event and our community lost one hell of a woman that night. She is now a treasure among the stars.